• vulnerable •Being naked is terrifying. The first time my w..

• vulnerable •

Being naked is terrifying. The first time my wife and I ever had sex, she asked me to turn around while she undressed, she was terrified that I wouldn't like her. That she would take the mask off too soon and I would be repulsed by the person underneath. My heart broke for her in that moment, knowing that someone before me, long before that day even, had made her feel unsafe in her own skin. But I turned around and saw her, there in my passenger seat and fell in love. Her eyes caught me first. Weary and wanting. Curious and questioning. The most beautiful blue ive ever seen, bright with anticipation of what might happen next. Her lips parted softly breathing quietly, just assesing me assesing the way her shoulds sit so broadly, a strong chest with soft skin carressing her clavical, her breasts, her curves shoing that her waist was grabable and it took everything in my will power to not just grab her and ravish her. No, i wanted to take things slow this first time so I hesitantly but eagerly, not breaking eye contact, moved to the floor below her. On my Knees looking up at her in the passenger seat, I was in awe. She looked so powerful, she could make the front seat of a Chrysler look like a throne made just for her. Cautious, I kissed the skin on her thighs for the first time. I didn't want to startle her or do anything wrong. I wrapped my fingers behind the soft of her knees, moved myself intentionally, holding eye contact as reassurance before i finally succumbed to the dark of my eyelids as I Tasted her warmth for the first time. and oh, how decadent she was. Everything I have done since that day has been to help my woman see herself as I see her. To help her heal and reverse those old negative thoughts. Its been years since that day and obviously we have come a long way together as our careers revolve around being vulnerable with our bodies online. And especially in this video I was reminded that we still get shy and need to take a moment to sit together and be present with eachother before we start filming. To be naked without the subtext of sex. To sit face to face, legs wrapped around eachother. Our scents mixing together between the heat of our bodies, chest to chest, skin to skin. You cant hide in that position. Its all there. The rolls on our bellies, the sweat, the lines on my face only she can see that closely. Yet there is nothing like it. Not being afraid to be truly seen by your person. To find someone who makes feeling vulnerable, a safe place to be. I am glad, that here, 3 years since our first time, we have become that safe place for eachother. And now for others who want to see their bodies on screen and feel sexy, confident, and know that Your body , even at its most vulnerable, is enough as it is.