The past year has been really hard on me.. As some or most of you know, I have bipolar disorder- and sometimes it's really truly debilitating, crippling. I've been very hard on myself for my inconsistency, but some days I really just haven't been able to get out of bed. It's been a year of loss for me, and I guess I hadn't really realized how hard that had hit me until recently. And I've apologized for my inconsistency but haven't been open with you about what's actually been going on with me.
Around christmas last year, I lost a woman that had been a maternal figure to me for years in a time where I badly needed her- to lung cancer.
A few months later, my brother and i had a physically violent falling out and we stopped speaking.. we have always been very very close until that point.
Then I got a consistent job and things were looking up (even though it was kinda corporate and soul-sucking, if I'm being honest).. until a few months ago when i lost my job and my best friend ghosted me, in the same week. You'll notice i no longer talk about Vi*en or Selina.
I haven't been consistent and absolutely don't deserve those of you that have stuck around, but you've allowed me to stay afloat in a time where i otherwise would've completely drowned. I'm still trying to get up and be okay, but time heals all wounds i suppose, and I can't stay down forever... so I want to make 2022 better. 2021 was absolute fucking shit for me.
Idk. Anyways, I'm not sure what is next but I know I'll be streaming on twitch and trying to create structure for myself, so that I can become a more consistent performer. I have no way to repay any of you for your year of support at the moment, but I hope that someday soon I'll be in a position where I can. From the absolute bottom of my heart, thank you for your love, support, and understanding.
<3
2021-12-10 21:58:17 +0000 UTC
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Raise your hand if you didn’t receive a video PPV message yesterday.. my OF seems to be acting up 🤔
2021-11-15 16:25:05 +0000 UTC
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Been working on taking photos of myself, think I might be getting kinda okay at it.. the last pic is my favorite 🖤
2021-11-14 05:08:27 +0000 UTC
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If I went live every day (or most days) what log-on time would be best for you guys?
(Please keep in mind that I’m using Pacific time / PDT)
2021-09-30 16:26:14 +0000 UTC
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Hey guys,
I’ll message individually as well but if you’re waiting on a custom in which I’m using a dildo- I’m waiting for a new one to arrive so it will be a wait.
Please note that I have always requested that you *not*** send payment until I confirm with you that I am ready to make your vid, and these types of hitches are exactly why.
2021-08-25 23:10:02 +0000 UTC
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Still not going back to shooting professionally :))
2021-08-22 19:34:07 +0000 UTC
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Ayyyyeee guess who's unemployed
2021-08-22 00:05:09 +0000 UTC
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Taking custom vid orders again !
If you have already placed an order I'll be getting back to you with pricing in the next 24 hours
2021-07-23 21:12:53 +0000 UTC
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2021-07-22 07:21:07 +0000 UTC
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Happy Friday!!!! Answering messages today, maybe we'll make this a weekly schedule kinda thing- if I don't get back to everyone during the week I'll be available on Fridays and all weekend <3
2021-06-18 17:47:44 +0000 UTC
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Longest. Week. Ever.
2021-06-12 06:18:50 +0000 UTC
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Ok I’ve been lagging on editing that vid so I’m going to drop clips as I go through them bc I have to edit in short bursts of time that I’m not busy 😬
2021-06-09 16:09:59 +0000 UTC
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So, I found a plastic lizard this morning. Thought it was real. Long story short, I want a green basilisk now.
2021-06-09 16:09:04 +0000 UTC
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editing a new videoooo
2021-06-07 01:47:22 +0000 UTC
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Ok HR said I could share about my job 😊
I’m the new A&R representative for Vixen Global Media. So this means I’ll be scouting new talent and making sure the models are comfortable during their shoots, as well as going between production and management to make sure everything is smooth on our end. It’s going to be a huge time commitment but I’m really excited for the challenge, honestly... I’m still able to keep my OnlyFans, which is actually really generous on their end. Glad I get to keep you guys 🥰
This will be the one and only platform where I will be allowed to post my content. Obviously I’ll still upkeep my social media, but my extracurricular efforts will be primarily focused on this site. Nothing here will really change too much ☺️
Ok. Going to go get poké with Selina... see ya later !
2021-05-03 20:53:50 +0000 UTC
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Officially got the job 🥰 going to ask HR if I’m allowed to tell you guys what it is. Don’t worry.. still working for a porn company so I can be myself 🥰 but I am officially retired from professional shoots as of today! Only way to see my new content is on here. I’ll keep you updated 💛
2021-04-30 18:33:37 +0000 UTC
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Photo dump of my week... time with friends and self care. More tomorrow 💛 new panties to show off
2021-04-27 21:55:27 +0000 UTC
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🍃🌿🌱
2021-04-21 06:13:27 +0000 UTC
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Trying liquid chlorophyll today, hoping it’ll make my skin all glowy 😋🌱
2021-04-16 21:03:27 +0000 UTC
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I’ve had a migraine since yesterday, spending the day in bed.. so sad bc I was supposed to go hiking with my friend Claire today! 😣
On the bright side, three of my best friends are getting an OnlyFans !!!! I’ll show you pics soon
2021-03-11 18:59:47 +0000 UTC
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Pushing the live back 30 ish minutes... i ran out of contacts this morning so I can barely see anything :')
2021-03-09 17:37:58 +0000 UTC
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hey everybody :) going live tomorrow at 10AM PST (check your time zone)... come make breakfast with me!!
2021-03-08 19:17:28 +0000 UTC
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2021-03-06 00:36:25 +0000 UTC
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Done w my internship.. wasn’t for me
2021-02-28 22:55:03 +0000 UTC
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Homemade waffles w almond butter & preserves, applewood smoked bacon, CBD infused coffee with oat milk.
I love Sundays 😌
2021-02-21 19:27:56 +0000 UTC
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Happy Valentine’s, my loves. Thank you for being my friends, confidants, and personal perverts for the last year. Thank you for being supportive of me even when I really wasn’t feeling myself. And thank you for being patient and kind, please spread that to other people in your life because we all need a little love right now. ❤️
2021-02-15 00:32:09 +0000 UTC
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Space cadet 👽
2021-02-15 00:29:57 +0000 UTC
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2021-02-01 04:00:36 +0000 UTC
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Relax and stretch with me ❤️
2021-02-01 02:22:16 +0000 UTC
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For those of you that have ordered custom videos, I’m doing another round tomorrow!! I had a long stay-at-home solo shoot today (can’t say for who) so I have no energy left to be in front of a camera tonight. Thanks for being patient, I know I’ve been behind this past week 💕
2021-01-21 03:45:35 +0000 UTC
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