By fan request, this is an oldie but goodie. Someone saw this photo elsewhere and asked me to post it on my OF Page. Photo by Mark Beck Photography. This photo was from the beginning of my modeling journey. I'm not sure how old I was in this photo, but definitely in my 20s - maybe late 20s. I started modeling at 25, which is actually considered very late for a model. Most models start way earlier than that -
See, I grew up extremely painfully shy growing up. I was so scared to talk or express myself in any way. Also, to think I could model was crazy. I was awkward, had terrible acne, and a mustache! - LOL - I didn't know anything about hair removal - Ha! Megan Fox had a mustache, too (and a unibrow) Google it ! It wasn't until I was in my mid-twenties when my Russian friend, Svetlana, encouraged me to do it, that I started to dip my toe in.
I found that it was a wonderful way to express myself physically and feel confident and sexy. I also learned about hair removal! So when I post photos for my fans, it's not about "showing off" or "look at me". It is my *art*. I am giving a piece of me - of my soul - and saying "Hope you can get to know me a little." - Happy Thursday OnlyFans! Peace and Blessings xoxo ~
Happy Wednesday OnlyFans! Sorry for my absence. Life caught up with me. Hoping I can continue on my OnlyFans journey. Right now I am in a very positive place. I have a lot of projects going and and I am busier than ever, but I also get overwhelmed, stressed and feel like I am just checking things off a list.
Do you ever feel this way? Any advice? How do you get everything you need to get done without letting everyone down or driving yourself insane?
Enjoy these photos from my photoshoot with Vikram Photography ! Peace and Blessings. xoxo
Happy Wednesday OnlyFans! I missed my post last week, and I was so sad about it. I think some of you know I am not a full time model. So, I do have to keep the lights on somehow. I would love to model full time for my fans with fun, empowering, and sexy photos but I do need your support to keep my model page going ! So please send tips or at least likes and comments. :)
Just got my photos back from my shoot with Vikram Mark Photography. Do you like this one? It's a bit tame and understated, but there are a lot more sexy ones in the bunch ! Would love your feedback either way. PEACE AND BLESSINGS - xoxo
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Happy Wednesday OnlyFans, Family ! I hope you're having a great week. I *finally* am. I've been struggling so much recently with mental health issues. I am happy to finally have a nice calm week. This week, I have been embracing life and trying to be in the moment.
I've heard that a lot "be in the moment". It bothers me sometimes. It seems like something "woke" white ladies say to sound zen, but it's true. We spend so much time worrying about the future or thinking about all the things we did wrong in the past, it is hard to forget that sometimes it's really nice just to enjoy the moment - to be at peace and to say "hey, everything is okay and everything will be okay."
I hope you take some time to be grateful for your life and realize it's all going to be okay! PEACE AND BLESSINGS!
I hope you enjoy this photo from my photoshoot in New Orleans with Cam Ladner Photography ! If you do, please leave a tip. So, I can keep shooting more fun content for my OF.
I loved this fun shoot with Edsger Photography. Edsger likes subtle sexy, classy, and I think his style of off the shoulder photos is unique and a bit of a tease. With social media models showing almost everything and free explicit videos available online, I feel like the art of sexy is being lost! I love being sexy. That's why I started this OnlyFans page to show off my model photos.
I wanted to show a different side of me that was apart from my comedic, intellectual, joke-writing side. I wanted to show that pretty can be funny, but also middle aged can be pretty! Women age. We grow - we become more than just girls. We become sexual, accept ourselves, and own our bodies, and I think that is a wonderful thing! I don't think you should ever stop accepting yourself and learning and growing because otherwise you aren't alive anymore!
Have a great week my OnlyFans! Peace and Blessings!
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I started modeling later in life. When I was a little girl, I was so shy. When I hit puberty, I was very awkward and not that pretty. I had braces, acne, and bad hair. I remember the first time anyone told me I was pretty. I was in high school, and helping out special needs kids. A girl with down syndrome told me, "Wow. You're pretty."
It was the first time anyone had ever told me that, and I cried. I still don't know if I am attractive or not. Beauty is subjective and maybe some people out there think I look okay on the outside. I do know that I love modeling. I love the way it makes me feel, and I love sharing my art with my OnlyFans. I also know it will fade, just like everything else. So, I want to share my art with you as long as I can, and I know that it's what is on the inside that counts, but it's still fun to wear knee high stalkings out on the street and strike a pose! I love you guys!
Enjoy this photoshoot I did in New Orleans with Cam Ladner Photography. I hope that you have a great week and my posts make you smile. - PEACE AND BLESSINGS!
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Hi OnlyFans! I am trying to raise money for my next photoshoot with Vikram Mark Photography! I need to raise money for wardrobe, make up, and editing, and other services. As always, if you contribute in any amount, you will get first look, special photos that I won't release to the public. Also please note I am not a full time model. So, your donations help me to keep going on OF. Thank you so much! Any amount helps!! xoxo
Easy like Sunday morning...that's how I felt taking these fun photos with Casey Arakawa Photography in the rented downtown L.A. studio loft. I felt carefree, happy, sexy, and loving. I love modeling. I get to show a side of me that is intimate, open...vulnerable. I get to make love to the camera and accept myself in the moment as I am.
I wish I could take this into all aspects of my life but sometimes we have to have our walls up, be cold and protective. This life is not always easy. It can be hard, mean, and harsh. It can be filled with failures and sadness, but for a few brief moments I can be the best version of myself and share it with you... I hope you like the photos this week! This is me being my best self. PEACE AND BLESSINGS !!
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Oh boy ! Happy hump day, OnlyFans! So.... tomorrow is my birthday and I officially turn the Big 4-0, and I am STILL having all sorts of feelings about it. Will I be considered beautiful by society any longer? Desirable? Do I still care what other people think? I'm 40! I know beauty comes from within but, man, once your knee starts cracking when you are just sitting down, it doesn't feel like it !
So with this post, I wanted to say. I am going to be 100% honest. I *DO* care a bit, and I don't like when people pretend they DON'T care. I think you need to be real with yourself in order to accept yourself and learn and grow. I have friends (of all genders) that pretend they don't care about getting older, but then get really upset and hide their birthday, get jealous of younger people and hate on them, and act passive agressive.
The way I am choosing to look at it is to pretend I am already on my deathbed. I would probably tell myself, "Hey, enjoy 40, honey. You will miss it when you're my age." So, that's what I am going to do. Tomorrow, I booked a pole dancing class - videos soon? Lol... And I have karaoke planned with my best friends at night! I am going to have a blast and hopefully "Deathbed Me" would be proud. Hope you live fully today no matter what your age. Peace and Blessings and THANK YOU for following my journey! By the way, what do you think of these photos by my friend Charlie? Please leave a positive comment or "like". So, I know if you want more of this type of content.
Photos by: Charlie Vaughn of Raven Wood Pictures
Happy New Year, OnlyFans! This photo really represents how I feel - like there are two of me. I am turning 40 next week, and honestly, I have all sorts of feelings about it. Part of me is happy I am turning 40. Aging is a privilege not everyone can enjoy. I have lost many close friends and family members. I am lucky to be alive and to share my joy for another year with the World!
But part of me is deeply sad. A lot of society believes that I won't be sexy anymore, I have no value, and I am to be tossed away. My body is aging, sagging, and changing. I have wrinkles and gray hair! I'm not a girl anymore. I am very much a woman. I am navigating the World in my next chapter. I don't know what life will bring, but I hope you will come along for my journey of self-acceptance and love! With your support, I hope to still be posting beautiful, artistic, sensual, and sexy photos when I am 50 and beyond. Peace and Blessings, OnlyFans!
Photo by: Casey Arakawa Photography.
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Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays, OnlyFans! Hope you enjoy this photo from my photo shoot with Cam Ladner Photography in New Orleans! Special shout out to all my fans who donated to my campaign for this shoot. Wow - I am so lucky. Tips and donations not only help me fund my photo shoots, but they also let me know that you guys want to see my photos!
I was teased growing up. I had terrible acne, braces, and really bad hair! I was a very nerdy and shy kid, and I never thought in a million years anyone would care about seeing my modeling photos. It's taken me years to be confident enough to share my art with the World, and just in time for me to turn - middle aged. - Ha! Now my body is changing- sagging, graying, and wrinkling, but that's WHY I started this page.
I am learning and growing...challenging myself to accept ALL of me - from the timid unattractive little girl to the middle aged woman; I want to accept and love myself, and hopefully inspire YOU to love and accept yourself, too. I hope to be showing off sensual and lovely modeling photos for many years with your support. Peace and Blessings! xoxo
Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays! Thank you so much for subscribing to my profile. I was so scared to start an OnlyFans account. I don't really put my modeling out there and I've always been shy about my appearance, since I was teased growing up. But I am so grateful and thankful to all my subscribers, fans, and friends! The tips, likes, and positive comments make me feel like I can keep going on and that someone wants to see my photos and share my journey of body and self-acceptance. Thank you so much for your support! Love you guys - peace and blessings!
Hi OnlyFans - Enjoy this week's post from Edsger Photography! I loved shooting with him. We did an "off the shoulder" look which I think is *subtly* sexy and playful. I don't think you have to be totally nude to be sexy. I think you can show a little bit of skin and give people a tease, but also sexiness can be about attitude, beauty, and personality, too.
I know I have met people I thought were *soo* attractive, but then they opened their mouth and had nothing important, interesting, funny, or nice to say. Yuck! I love modeling. Part of my journey of self-acceptance is being comfortable enough to show my fans who I really am. I think this photo is very intimate and vulnerable because I am showing you my true essence through the lens.
I hope you like it! Love you guys! Peace and Blessings. Hope you have a nice holiday season.
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A few more photos from my sexy lingerie shoot/set with Dropout Photography! I know it sounds cliche, but I am actually very shy. It sounds crazy. How can someone who models call themselves shy?
People are only seeing the work in progress, not the years that it took to build up to get to where I am! I used to be so scared, I wouldn't even ask a stranger for a napkin! I have come out of my shell over the years, but it took a lot to conquer my fears and insecurities, and I am still working on it every day.
So, please *BE NICE* if you like my photos, and just be kind, in general - to everyone you come across. Encouragement goes a long way, but we are all struggling with our own demons. Enjoy the fruits of my labor! Hope you guys have a great week, OnlyFans! I really appreciate you all a lot, and remember: I love to chat and I am not a full time model. So tips help me pay for my modeling endeavors !
Happy December, OnlyFans! I had a really tough Thanksgiving Holiday. I had to put my dog down of 15 years. I know a lot of people say "it's just a dog", but he was my best friend and my fur "son". He was the longest relationship I ever had! I really loved that little guy, but as always, life is a lesson.
My little dog taught me to keep fighting and stay positive. He wasn't doing well the last few years, but he kept going on. He always had a happy smile on his face, and he was so cute and loving.
I hope that I have the same strength as that little dog - trying to move on even when life is hard and have a smile on my face and stay upbeat as much as I can. Life is really crazy sometimes, but if a little dog can put one paw forward, I can put my best foot forward and keep going! I hope you try to stay hopeful this week, even if things are difficult for you. Peace and Blessings to all my fans!
Photo by Shane F. King Photography.
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Shibari or Kinbaku means the beauty of tight binding. It is a Japanese form of bondage that is also considered a work of art! I had the honor of modeling for my friend, photographer, Shane F. King.
This is a short set, but more to come soon... So, if you like it, stay tuned! Let me know your thoughts? I like how artistic it looks and unique. For me, it is a metaphor for life and aging. As I age, things on my body move and change but they can still be beautiful despite what mainstream society says about middle-aged women. With Kinbaku, you are taking something that could be considered sinful - bondage and in an artistic way making it beautiful.
I hope you all have things in your life that you can view as beautiful that might be traditionally thought of as not so. Life isn't just black/white, good/bad, or ugly/beautiful. There is beauty in everything if you open your eyes and mind to see it. Peace and Blessings to all my OnlyFans! Keep spreading love and light...
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Happy Thanksgiving, OnlyFans family ! I had a really tough year but through everything, there's always something to be grateful and thankful for. This year I am thankful for my health. Health is numbero uno and a lot of people take being healthy for granted. If you're not sick, in the hospital, or dealing with a chronic illness, you're doing better than most people!
And if you are dealing with chronic pain or illness, know that you can have good days, too! I struggle, like everyone else, but on this Thanksgiving I am doing good, and I get to cherish the good times when they are here. So, let's be thankful for something today, dang it!
I love my OnlyFans family and hope you guys have a nice holiday. Enjoy this photo from the very talent Casey Arakawa Photography!
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Holidays are coming soon! We're only a week away from Thanksgiving. Oh my! Where did 2023 go? I can't believe it. The Holidays can be a really fun time filled with family and friends! It can also be a really tough, stressful, or lonely time. I lost my Dad around the Holidays a few years ago, I had a dog die the day before Christmas Eve, and I've been dumped around the Holidays, too!
Doesn't life understand it's supposed to be a HAPPY TIME? LOL - Nope! Life does what it does. It keeps going and doesn't care about me OR my problems, and it doesn't care about you either! That's why we are all here to create our own meaning and purpose for ourselves (or with the help of a higher power, if that's your thing). We can chose to focus on the things that are working in our lives and let go of the things that aren't.
This week, I am grateful I get to model for my amazing OnlyFans Family! I am so happy I get to express myself and feel beautiful - even if it's just for my fans. This series is called "Blue" by Edsger Photography. I hope I can brighten your week and your tips and positive comments TRULY brighten mine. Let's all try to stay sane and positive during this time of year. So, what do you think of this series? Love you guys! Peace and Blessings! xoxo
Good Morning OnlyFans! Does anyone else relate to going from loving your life to hating it? Sometimes I feel really happy and blessed I get to be me, and sometimes I wish I could be someone else!
This week I get to focus on loving myself and being grateful for the life that I have. I actually have a lot going for me, but the bad things in life have a way of bringing me down and stressing me out.
Some things I love and I get to be grateful for - I love modeling. I love sharing my journey of self-love and acceptance with my fans. I love inspiring people. I love trying to bring joy, happiness, and laughter to others. I love my fans on OnlyFans!
This is from one of my favorite throwback shoots with Shane Noir Photography. - Enjoy!
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Happy Friday, OnlyFans! I missed my Wednesday posting and *almost* did not post this week, but my awesome fans encouraging me got me off my butt. So, thank you! It's not that I don't want to post, but life gets in the way, and it's so hard. This week my mom had some major and scary health issues. She is getting up there in age, and - like many seniors - doesn't take great care of herself. It's been stressful.
This weeks post is really bold for me. First off, it's very sexy (for me), but also the post isn't perfect. You can see some stretch marks, and I didn't want to photoshop them out! I look a bit old (in my opinion), but I wanted to post it anyways because I started this OF page to be all about self-acceptance, and even though these photos aren't perfect - they are me!
BTW, this is not to say anything bad about the photographer - Raven Wood Pictures. Charlie is a great photographer and amazingly fun to work with ! The photos came out great. His style is a bit sultry and dark and sexy - which I love! The issue is that I'm human and sometimes can focus on my imperfections. So... OnlyFans, this week let's LOVE something that we think is a flaw about ourselves!!
As my BFF Yoshi always says, "Stretch marks just mean even God didn't know the @$$ was going to be that big!" - LOL
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Hi OnlyFans! Hope you guys are having a nice week. I want to be totally honest with y'all - I haven't ! I got some bad career news, had some financial issues, and just kind of having a yucky year in general...but guess what? I am actually proud of myself because for some reason I am doing okay.
As you guys know, I struggle a lot with anxiety and depression, but this week despite having a lot on my plate, I actually feel calm. I feel good that I'm not spiraling into a dark place or taking things too hard - I guess this is what personal growth feels like - LOL !
I'm middle aged and I'm finally starting to understand what it means to not let what's going on OUTSIDE affect me on the INSIDE. It's definitely something that takes practice and is not easy. It has taken me years, and I may still let things affect me in the future. Remember - progress not perfection. I hope you guys try to take the bad in stride this week.
I'm still a work in progress, until I reach perfection.... enjoy this photo from a shoot I did with Shane Noir Photography. PEACE AND BLESSINGS!!
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Fun video from my lingerie shoot with Dropout Photography! What do you think of it? We shot this in the Summer. Wishing it was Summertime again... So, many amazing things happened this Summer, but also a lot of growth, and sometimes growth hurts.
I have been dealing a lot with self worth issues lately. I tend to give a lot to people - I give my time, my love, my friendship, and a lot of people are amazing and really appreciate it. Others don't. It's so hard when you give of yourself, and people act like they don't care or don't reciprocate in a way that feels fair.
Just know that YOU are valuable, and if someone doesn't appreciate your value, it might have more to do with them than you. I have had to learn this year to be more discerning and careful with my valuable time and give only to those who deserve it. I hope you try to share your life with people who VALUE YOU! Because YOU are WORTHY!! PEACE AND BLESSINGS !!
Hi beautiful OnlyFans! I love making fun, sexy, and inspiring posts for you. I especially love sharing my authentic struggles to show everyone that we're all human. Yesterday was my Dad's birthday. As some of you know, he passed away a few years ago. I posted a Happy Birthday post to him on my Instagram and lost 5 followers.
That was so sad to me that sharing my authentic experiences, including sadness scared some people away! We ALL have to deal with tough things - death, health issues, job losses, war - this is a tough life. By loving and accepting ourselves and our struggles, we can be more accepting in general! We can learn to grow spiritually, mentally, and emotionally instead of avoiding or stuffing our emotions.
I'm proud to wish my Dad a Happy Birthday and celebrate his life regardless of how others act. I hope you are brave and courageous enough to be yourself this week, even if others are not always accepting. Sending you LOVE, PEACE, and BLESSINGS !!!
Please enjoy this fun throwback photo from my shoot with Shane Noir Photography and remember that tipping my *FREE* posts encourages me to post more free, sexy, content! Love you guys!
Sorry for the late post, Fans! As you know, I am new to OnlyFans, and still learning. So, thank you for your patience as I work on my consistency with posting. I am not perfect, and strive every day to do better.
I also struggle every day with depression, anxiety, and the feeling of "not being good enough", just like many of us do. So this week, let's wash off all the negativity and be fresh, clean, and new! These photos are based off of Mario Testino's "Towel Series". They were shot by Edgers Studio, and a fun homage to the Italian photographer's Series.
Remember, whenever you fail, as long as you are alive in this World, you have a chance to wash off and start over again. We can't always change or fix all the mistakes of the past, but we can get up and keep going. Peace and Blessings to my Fans!
Happy Wednesday, OnlyFans! Summer is *just* almost over now, but wanted to say "Goodbye to Summer" with another fun short hair throwback from a shoot I did with Chris Knight Photography!
This week I wanted to talk about our subconscious mind and kindness. I try my best to work on my issues, but sometimes I fail. That's because 10% of our mind is conscious but 90% is our subconscious mind running the show! That subconscious mind runs all the bad programming from our traumatic experiences. The lesson this week is to be gentle and kind to ourselves and others as we all "do the best we can".
I used to hate that phrase. I would think "Hey, do better!", but we are all really doing the best we can *or* we WOULD do better. This week, be kind to yourself if you failed, made a mistake, or weren't perfect. We are all humans, with flaws, just doing the best we can. Love you guys! Peace and Blessings!
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I call this series of photos *LADY IN RED*!
The song "Lady in Red" actually represents vulnerability and intimacy. I think these are amazing qualities to have. So many people put up walls and hide who they really are. They are scared of rejection or have had abusive relationships or childhood trauma. I have been hurt, too. A lot - mentally, physically, and emotionally. This is a really tough World, and there are some mean people and bad things happen to a lot of us. But when we let the scary things that happen take away who we really are, we let the bad in this World win.
I refuse to let that happen. I choose to be authentic and vulnerable and show the World who I am. I am a loving, trusting, empowering woman! I hope you guys are living your BEST life every day and being brave enough to show your authentic self!
Photos by Edgers Studio.
Happy Fall, Only Fans! Love this throwback implied photo from my shoot with Chris Knight Photography. My hair was a little shorter! The color effects he put on the final photo remind me of Aliens! What do you think - Do I look like a sexy alien?
Sometimes I feel like we're all NPCs or "Non-Player Characters" in this crazy video game called life. When we get stuck in cycles of trauma it can feel like we're making the same mistakes over and over again. Most of us grew up with different levels of dysfunction, but we get to create the lives we want for ourselves by working on ourselves and looking within.
I chose health, healing, and happiness, and I hope you do, too! Remember to be kind to each other. We're all just doing the best we can. Peace and Blessings!
What do you guys think of this fun and sexy lingerie night shoot I did with Shane King Photography? I was always ashamed of my sexuality and my body, as I grew up in a very religious household and was taught to "cover up" and not show off my body.
As I get older, I think body acceptance is more important than ever. This is MY body. I own my body, my mind, my thoughts, my feelings, and I am free to express myself in any way I see fit. The only other entity that has a say in it are God and the Universal Energy but NOT another person or institution.
I am so lucky and blessed to be healthy and alive and share my body with others through my art and modeling. Let me know what you think in the comments section!
Good Morning, Fans! I hope you guys are having a nice week full of growth and self-acceptance. I've been struggling this week with my core childhood wound - not feeling like I am seen and heard. Probably the reason I became a comedian and podcaster!
I grew up not really having my opinion matter. My Dad was super strict and I didn't feel like I could express myself. My Dad is no longer with us and I miss him every day. I know he did the best he could, but now that I am all grown up I love expressing myself through my art. Enjoy this fun photo from my photoshoot with the talented Casey Arakawa! Casey made me feel super beautiful! Thanks Casey!
